I'm Stressful

Dah 4 bulan lebih dan bakal masuk 5 bulan dah aku duduk rumah je. Application kerja semua tak jalan. Tak ada rezeki lagi la nampaknya.
Semakin lama semakin tertekan.
Berat badan yang semakin bertambah. (Yes, I'm really stress about this)
Soalan-soalan yang sangat membosankan saya,
'Nak wat pe lepas ni?',
'Tak nak sambung belajar ke?',
'Nape tak cari kerje sementara dulu ke?'

Ya, saya dah bosan mendengar soalan-soalan seperti itu.

Ya, saya memang mau sambung belajar TAPI I really need to prepare myself. It not easy to me continue the study because i'm not ready yet. (but now it look like i'm ready to the challenge BUT maybe in the same time because i'm super duper bored in home).

Ya, saya memang nak kerja tapi tak ada orang nak amik saya kerje. :)

I can fell that my parents start worried about me.

In the deep of my heart I'm also worried about myself.

It's become more stressfull when I'm pretend everything is fine. Just fine.
But...... by the end it not fine. I't become worst.